So it is Monday (bahhh
), and I just finished a piece of cake for breakfast at work. No, I am not just saying this to shame myself with my bad eating habits! My bestfriend works with me and my aunt made her a cake so the entire office sang happy birthday to her and was given cake. Anyways, as I mentioned last entry, I am married now and actually have my own house! My husband has 3 kids which are a 15 year old girl, 7 year old boy, and a 5 year old daughter so we ended up getting a bigger place rather quickly to accommodate everyone and future kids. The good news is our new house is on roughly 12 acres of land in the country, which makes it very peaceful. However, this also means I live 3 cities away from my job and my commute to work is over an hour to and from the office. I doubt anyone remembers this but I used to live less than 5 miles from my work when I was still living at my parents. Needless to say, the drive has been a major adjustment! Life has been going very well considering the nightmare ending to 2015, which almost cost me my life among other things that were lost to me... BUT I will go into that another time when I am ready to share those events. Anyway, it is amazing how much a person and their life can change in a year. I look back at the person I was over the last 3 years and I was shitty to a lot of people who did not deserve it. I could chalk it up to some lame crap that oh misery loves company or some shit but the truth is I was just a bitch refusing to accept my own weaknesses or work on myself. I had accepted being a horrible person as the norm. and it took something soul shattering to happen to me last December and lots of psychiatric, law enforcement, and victim services help to bring me where I am in this moment writing this. I can confidently say I am a better person and stronger for what I experienced as well as the work I have put in to repairing my fractured soul/life. It is because of that I am happy and my life has changed for the better. Granted, I still have work to do and some days are harder than others for me, but with me taking it all one day at a time I can see the light in the tunnel. I know that the upcoming trial is more than likely going to cause me some setbacks, but I remind myself if I can survive the attack(s) the trial albeit difficult won't break me.
So to conclude this very long entry I simply want to say if I hurt you or made you feel any other way than comfortable and happy around me... I am sorry. Please know, no one literally no one I was a bitch to deserved what I said or did to them and it came from me being unhappy with myself as cliche as that may sound it is the truth. I do not expect people to forgive me nor for things to go back to how they were when we were friends. I simply just am sorry for everything.
That's all for now,
tinycasket
I am glad things have taken a turn for the better. My commute is 45-60 minutes (depending on traffic) and it kills me - I don't know how you manage yours!